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Just a couple of days ago, this was a point of discussion between me and Ramya, my lovely wife. She said God being so perfect in all aspects, and being the Creator of ALL things is truly well above All worldly things, and hence above sorrows, above sickness and above emotions. Well, a point that one needs to respect. But I have been thinking since our discussions - Is He truly free of emotions?

I was forced to think of all those days my parents cried over me when I was completely going astray. Specially my mom. Those were some of my horrible years, and everyone around me, including my parents thought I was a complete "gone case". I was surely not a blessing in anyone's lives. I clearly remember my mom shedding tears almost every day. My dad was disappointed, but was often successful in hiding his emotions.

Now why am I saying these things? What has it got to do with God being free of emotions? If you ask me, it has everything to do with my example. If mom and dad, who gave me birth were so depressed, and often cried out why am I not being who I am supposed to be, do you think God wont have the same thoughts when I am being a stupid kid? If anyone who truly understands my true potential, it has to be God, since He says He knew me when I was in my mom's womb. He said He had plans for me. He gave me dreams along with abilities to go achieve them. He also says he is not a teaser. Now if I didn't use any of them, or use them in a wrong way, do you think He was a bit disappointed in me? I surely think so. There were days, I am ashamed to admit, I did everything so wrong, that I was a disgrace. I wonder if God ever cried. He must have thought "I made Srini in my image. But look what he is doing". I have had a lot of conversations with God, mostly one way (or I felt they were). but strangely I never asked Him that question. One of these days, I am planning on asking.

Now one might argue, why am I comparing humanly attachments my parents had with me are being compared to my relation to God. I guess I know why I am doing. Its simple - we call Him "Father". In Hinduism, we call that devine power as Holy Mother. Either way, if my worldly parents can feel the sadness because of my mischief, I am sure the Ultimate Creator would feel the same way - just my sincere opinion.

The opposite can be true as well. If I do anything worthwile, I am sure, just like my own parents, He would be so proud of me. I recently heard a talk by one of the most successful men I have had a privilege of seeing say "God has smiled on me". There you go, in this case, the speaker was refering to God being happy of him, another state of emotion. So I know I am not completely off base here. If you have had the privilege of knowing the answer this question directly from the Source, let me know. I might just change my opinion. But for now, my life long challenge would be "how can I make God smile on me atleast once a day". After all, during this pursuit, I might just turn out to be a great citizen after all!

Cheers.